Past Life

Zidane~! What The Hell Are You Doing??

2006-07-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

Road Trip to Macap

2006-06-08T12:30:00.000+08:00

~full story~

Extreme Make Overs

2006-05-16T04:11:00.000+08:00

A Make-Over For Andrew

2006-05-16T03:17:00.000+08:00

since andrew has been so kind to some of us to give us a make over, i thought i'd do the same and give him a make over. hahahaha... peace~ hmmmm... i think i like my original brother better. hahaha..

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after make over

sweeetttt.... andrew lovessss it when people touches his nipples like that~

Quarter Master

2006-05-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

This is one crazy shit~! I would like to take that guy to a party and play quarters he could get all the chicks wasted!!! Muhahahhaha

A Short Clip From My Recent Assignment

2006-05-07T17:22:00.000+08:00

great job gang~!

My All Time Favourite Dance

2006-05-06T08:51:00.000+08:00

Ask A Ninja

2006-04-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

Blur & Screwed

2006-04-30T11:52:00.000+08:00

Lesson 1
never talk to a guy seriously or take the first thing he say after waking up seriously because chances are he didn't mean any of it~

damn man. woke up blur this afternoon and blurted something to mum which pissed her off. gotta look for a chance to get away from this house now cos if i know mum, she will hold this on me for the rest of the day~

What a Day

2006-04-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

just got back from my meeting with the groupleaders after a very screwed up international econ's paper. what did i expect? hardly had time to read anything with all the chaos going around. sigh~

i already didnt sleep last night trying to read up on econs but ended up researching for infomation for assignment. harry, shieun and i met at harry's at 8.30am and once we got all the legal documents settled and made arrangements to meet a rep from perodua headquaters in rawang, selangor; we shot up at 12.10pm. it was a long and tiring journey.

though we didn't get all the information that we needed (because they were mainly p&c), we still got a little some-some which we hope can help the team with the report later. we got back half an hour before econs test and my eyes were so heavy it could hardly open.

need to sleep now. brain feel like it's gonna shut down any time soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo(n)

Relaxing Weekend

2006-04-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

ever had one of those weekends when you know you've got a lot to do but just couldn't help but laze around and do nothing about them? haha... i just had mine~ after friday's successful presentation (kudos to all my groupmates and boss-moi), i took the weekend to just chill and watched "supernatural" - a series i just started to download. hmmm... some episodes are a little freaky especially when you are watching it in the still, silent night.

probably one of the highlights of my weekend was having lunch with my favourite lecturer to celebrate her success and the future success of mr teh, a lecturer from law faculty.

anyway, it's back to work for me now as i've still got assignments, reports and presentations to prepare for (even in this hour when finals are just around the corner). sigh... this week i've also got another test coming up so i've really gotta prepare for that. lazing time is over and it's back to overdrive. hope all of you had a good rest during the weekend and have a wonderful week ahead.

feeling so gay now for some reason~

DumbAss Kid

2006-04-20T06:35:00.000+08:00

this kid buzzed me in the middle of the night and started to chat with me. dumb ass.. hahaha... if you have the time, read the conversation. it's weird. he thinks i'm a girl~! hahahhaha.... (enjoy~!)
i'll have some fun with him later. hahaha... update you all if there is any "developments". just read on and you'll know what i mean~

pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:05:08 AM):
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:04:59 AM): huh?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:05:03 AM): and you are?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:05:52 AM): your id seems familiar but i cant remember who you are
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:05:53 AM): sorry
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:05:54 AM):
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:06:07 AM): yea, i kno we've talked before
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:06:13 AM): how old are u?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:06:18 AM): 22
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:06:36 AM): oh, what state
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:07:03 AM): hmmm... you still havent tell me who you are my friend
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:07:20 AM): u've just answered it my friend
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:07:28 AM): i am a human being
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:07:34 AM): i feel jus like uu
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:07:36 AM): u*
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:07:43 AM): haha..
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:08:03 AM): well, then friend.. care to introduce yourself?
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:08:20 AM): i am 20
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:09:28 AM): and?
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:09:40 AM): and now it's ur turn to answer my previous question
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:09:54 AM): ok... malaccan.. and you?
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:10:25 AM): i knew u were from an exotic place. i am from nj, united states
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:10:41 AM): haha...
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:10:53 AM): well, do you have a name?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:11:49 AM): ermmm.. i'm not sure if malacca, malaysia is an "exotic" place... but guess it's different from what you are used to.. just a developing nation
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:12:41 AM): speaking of development, what kind of woman have u developed into? are u studying in college, working,?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:13:08 AM): hmmm.. i believe it's your turn to answer my question
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:13:47 AM): i have a name, but if u kno anything about shakespeare, then what is there in a name, how about ur name is love and my name is pisao
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:14:25 AM): nice come back
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:14:41 AM): then how about this... you ARE a guy right?
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:14:49 AM): i am male
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:16:08 AM): well, i'm glad that we've established that.. i'd thought you would take your sex lightly as well
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:17:17 AM): the opposite sex is more interesting, so i dont take that lightly, so, are u going to answer my question, i'd like to kno how u've developed since u are in just a developing country
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:18:54 AM): yes.. the opposite sex is definitely more interesting.. but no, i don't think i'll be answering that question all that soon, well, not till i know you better anyway
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:18:58 AM):
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:20:20 AM): u alreaty kno everything there is to kno about me, i am jus like u, except with a difference in personality, and chances are im more intelligent anyways, other then that, u alreaty kno me
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:24:01 AM): haha... you being more intelligent would be a pretty slim chance friend
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:24:52 AM): regardless of who is more intelligent, let me ask u this, how comfortable do you feel around me, or do u still see me as a complete stranger?
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:25:49 AM): pretty much the latter
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:26:53 AM): well that's not good at all, u see, i would like to get over this useless introduction and get on with bigger things, we only live once, and so, why be uncomfortable with someone so far away
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:30:26 AM): and what "bigger things" did you had in mind?
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:32:17 AM): for instance, i kno ur a female, i kno u have a body, and im very curious and things that interesting, and what interests me is the woman sexuality, i want to be able to talk to you with such an openess that i could ask you a personal question, and u'd answer it without feeling like someone is intruding in ur private life, because that's not true, my philosophy is there is nothing to hide, we are who we are, and knowledge can only exist where the fear of hiding information is not taking place
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:35:54 AM):
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:36:02 AM): not a bad philosophy
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:36:13 AM): as u can see, i am ahead of my time
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:36:15 AM): for a 20 year old kid i mean
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:36:29 AM): no...
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:36:36 AM): i didnt say you are ahead of your time
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:37:07 AM): for if you are as smart as you think you are, you would have done more research on the person you're "trying" to act smart with
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:37:43 AM): no, for me to research would defeat the purpose, u see, i dont want anything from u other then ur soul
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:39:29 AM): big words for someone without the capacity to comprehend "soul"
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:39:49 AM): how would you figure i dont comprehend "soul"
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:40:51 AM): cos even wanting to know the soul... one should search for it... study and understand it... it's what makes you thick...
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:41:13 AM): and no one would open up their soul to just another kid who thinks he's smarter than his own age
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:42:07 AM): i want to understand ur soul, so i can connect with u at levels beyond what most mortals are capable of, so what if i think im smart, that is irrelevent and only the product of my personality filled with flaws
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:42:11 AM): but neither u are perfect
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:43:32 AM): and because i'm not perfect, i do not act as though i am and would now humbly excuse myself to slumber
pisao7 (4/20/2006 5:43:58 AM): ok, guess everyone shuns from the devil
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 5:44:42 AM): i am the devil kid... it's almost day dawn here and i would lay rest
love_intoxicating (4/20/2006 6:29:06 AM): hey kid, authorize me... and maybe we'll talk about my developments next time

Reel Deal Reviews Ice Age 2

2006-04-19T06:55:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday Lee

2006-04-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

hey brother, i've known you since we were 10. we fought and hated each other in the past but through that long process we've become friends and overcame many obstacles together. this entry is dedicated to you. many love to ya~

TO YOU LEE-MAN,
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY

Gotta Get Me One Of These

2006-04-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

Food Food & More Food~~!!

2006-04-16T02:01:00.000+08:00

ahhhh... just got back from my cg outing. it was so nice seeing everyone (well, almost everyone~ tehehe) again. i've been missing it action for quite some time now due to work and test but i hope to finish my responsibility as a cg leader for the next 3 weeks or so together with my fellow meatballs.

today, we went to umbai and had ikan bakar. *grins uncontrolably* Well, at first i was worried that we couldn't finish because we ordered A LOT considering that there were only 6 of us eating. hahaha.. boy, did they prove me wrong.

after a hearty meal, we decided to head over to secret recipe for some mouth-watering cakes. eeeee... feel so spoilt tonight. but i'll have to work off those cheese cakes soon. hahaa... planing to have more of these outings in the coming weeks (if everything runs according to plan). hahaha...

meatballs, i had fun tonight.
love you guys~!!

I Fried My Aircond

2006-04-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

5.20am, just got back from oasis partying with some friends. a nice way to destress from all this week's papers. i snuck into my room quietly as to not wake my parents and there it was staring down at me. THERE'S A FRIGGIN RAT IN MY ROOM~!

there~! see it? see it???

how the hell did it get in here? i know i've been drinking tonight but i can swear i'm looking at a rat. it ran across the railing and found refuge in the hole behind the aircond unit.

hmmmm... i wonder what i was thinking back then. all i knew is i saw my trusted friend and knew i wanted to fry the shit out of him. and so i did~ took out the insecticide and a lighter and before you can say supercalifragilisticexpielilocious the whole place was up in flames. WARNING: PLEASE DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME

my trusted friend and home-made flamethrower

errmmm... things kinda got crazy and the back of my aircond unit was up in flames. hahaha~ shit... paniced, i kept throwing water at it till the flame dies down. when i checked, the rat wasn't there. I SAW A RAT OK?? haven't told dad about the aircond yet but i'm sure he'll find out soon enough... crap~~

the wires behind are toast~! i'm so dead

Stupid Morning

2006-04-13T07:29:00.000+08:00

already i didn't get much rest last night trying to study all there is to study in international management. the subject is a killer and with no textbook, it's even harder to understand what the lecturer was talking about throughout the time. all i have are notes. damn~

early morning messages really can spoil your day. sigh... freak~ trying to go back to sleep now and not let it bother me. don't really know what i did wrong. it was a sound judgement and the way i see it, everything was fine till i openned my mouth. maybe i should learn from this. somethings are better left unsaid and lies can help avoid many disputes.

Fantastic Dinner

2006-04-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

this evening, dad really has outdone himself. he cooked a sumptuous dinner tonight of 4 dishes which includes toufu, fish, "patoala" and a mixture of prawns, eggs and mixed veg. a good break for the tired mind and the hungry stomach. thanks dad~!

"thank you ah.. please come again~"

Ivy's Birthday

2006-04-10T06:30:00.000+08:00

well, after a very long and some what frustrating week of midterm test and rushing to meet my assignment dateline, i finally got some time to rest and relax with the boys. it was ivy's birthday and house 25 decided to throw a surprise bbq for her. gerald did most of the planning like getting her housemates and all while ben, daniel and i did the cooking and moral support. it's been awhile since i did one of these anyway so it was all good~

since all of them were chinese ed, things got off on a slow side for us. i for one weren't able to catch everything that was said between the girls ~banana~ however things began picking up once the "story teller" came. rachel (i think that's how you spell it) was friendly and interacted more with the guys so the 2 groups cliqued better at the latter half of the bbq.

the boys had a good talk too once everything finished. hmmmm... my friend, all i can say is "we've gotta do what we've gotta do". take heed~
to end the night with a light note, the guys did some pretty whacky stuffs which because this is a public blog, i shall not mention nor will i post pictures. let's just say it involves semi-nudity. wahahaha.. did i say too much already??

the prep and food... mmm.. hmmm...

ivy's surprise

group photos

oh the mess...

see no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil and smell no evil too~!

~ i had a great time guys. thanks.

Who Says We Can't Do It Ourselves?

2006-04-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

Watch Maggie Q Strip~!

2006-04-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

Relaxing Day~

2006-03-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

today has been pretty relaxing. had some errands done like fixing my tyres, aircond and even got myself a hair cut. hehe... it's nice to take a day break from assignments and classes to just do the simple things in life.

family affair

wait till it's done lar

"bluek~! wonder what i'll look like later"

finished product

A Lil Humor

2006-03-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

after all the serious entries, i thought i'd add a little humor to lighten up the place. here's a little something i found while surfing the net. check it out~

right... highly effective big guy

what an advert for jeans.. man~!

any idea what they are talking about? tehehe..

virgin?? right...

What A Day ~ Friend Hospitalized

2006-03-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

*yawn* man... that was a good sleep. was out the whole day again dispite not getting any sleep last nite.

was in the middle of my morning class thinking of how nice it would be to get back home and just crash on the bed. my class ends at 10 and the next will only be at 4pm so there's plenty of time to snooze. in the middle of the class i got a call from a friend asking me to send him to the hospital. said he is down with high-fever for about a week now.

kong in pantai hospital

and so like any good friends would do, i left after class to pick him up and we went about getting his reference letter from a nearby clinic and headed to pantai and after waiting for what seems to be an eternity, the doc finally called him in.

warded instantly.. hope it aint serious man

he was immidiately warded for further observation to see if it's anything serious while i helped him settle all the paperworks and be his witness. hhmmm.. was shocked to find out that he had to put in a rm2k deposit before his warding can be approved. 2 friggin k man~!!! that's crazy talk! with that kinda money, i can go for holidays and back with that kinda money, no sweat.

dunno if it's the illness or the cost of treatment that's causing this

after settling all his stuff, it was about 3pm already. i've spent about 5 hours with him just getting him all settled down and all. hope you get better soon buddy~!

after my last class ended at 6pm, i got home~ took a quick shower and crashed straight into neverland. *yawn* that was a good sleep~! now everything is dark and... WHAT THE HECK~! it's 2.10am.. awww mannn..

another sleepless nite for me?

Brain-dead

2006-03-27T03:37:00.000+08:00

stuck, brain-dead, mental-block and just not in the friggin mood to do anything now. been staring at this screen for about 1 hour now and yet no moves forward.

just can't figure out how to finish this damn report. want to finish this by tonight before other assignments are due and before the rest of the midterm papers come flooding in. sigh.. looks like i'll be up all nite and then head straight to class in the morning again.

damn law lecturer can't make her instructions a little clearer to make our lives a little easier. such a general instruction and the law seminar didn't help all that much. so vague plus speakers who talked out of topic. man.. frustrating~!

Devil's Advocate

2006-03-25T03:24:00.000+08:00

woohoooo.. just watched the show again. pretty cool to think what the devil can do sometimes. but at the end of the day, it still boils down to free-will. haih.. the untimate gift of freedom and yet the poison that rots us from the inside.

made some interesting discovery though. i've got a bookmark given to me about my name which says "Aaron which means the bearer of light"
look up lucifer in wikipidea and it brings the same meaning. haha~ wonder what that says about me.

vanity is certainly my sin of favourite

Outing

2006-03-24T17:35:00.000+08:00

since these few days have been really cloudy and people i know are falling "emo", today i went on a simple outing to town with intentions of making a friend feel better. together with another friend, we had tangkak beef for lunch and then headed straight to mp to do some shopping.

haha.. it was fun to let them pick out what they think should be nice for me to wear and to try to change my looks. they say i look old and sloppy with my current fashion-sense. we looked at shirts, sweaters, jeans and even shoes. bought me a pair of slippers too. keke.. i must admit, mine is a little run down and someone like me would rarely care about such things so i'm glad they were there today. to end the day, we had a little sushi too. hahaha.. however, before leaving i found that 1 of my rear tires were flat! sigh... and there were some changes made in my boot when i re-painted my car which made it even more difficult to get the spare and the jack to work. damn... but still it was fun, dispite the circumstances.
hope you're feeling better now.

"day out was good dispite the circumstances... lucky i realised my mistake and woke up from my dream in time"

2006-03-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

i love the rain~! it washes away all the blood..

First Vanity

2006-03-20T19:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha, first time i'm declaring that i think i look good in this picture. hehe.. nice.. wadaya think? someone told me the pose i'm in is outdated... ~ what the heck?! since when does poses get outdated???? wahahhahaa... just being vain for the day. peace~

Get Off My Back~!

2006-03-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

you can do whatever you want.. and i know sooner or later you'll be reading this. i'm no longer a kid where you can make me do the things you want. i'm not sorry for being the way i am. not everyone lives according to your beliefs and principles. well, too bad~! we are all individuals anyway and we'll live life the way we feel we should. that's what make this world unique and different.

2006-03-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

2006-03-16T05:37:00.000+08:00

damn i hate it when my body is so tired but my mind wont let me fall asleep. sometimes there is just so much to think about that it never seems to end. it comes from no where and will lead to no where at times. why the hell am i thinking all these for? thinking of faces, places and events that has gone through and for what?! these memories brings me way back. why do i think back of days that has past..
back when 3 brothers were torn apart for the love of the same girl, relationship that ended due to a lie, years of friendship that fades with the passing hour, things that could have been and chances that was lost. broken friendships and trust; mistakes and regrets. i hate my past~!

i've come to a point in my life again where i just want to go somewhere... anywhere. a place where no one knows me and i can start all over. i just want to forget... i just want to forget everything...

Interfaith Talk 10

2006-03-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

mannn.. it has been a long day. a lot of headache and worrying.. but it was all good.

started off with a nice satay celup dinner with my family. wwwoooweee... it's been awhile since i last ate this what more with my parents. well, it's nice to eat this without worrying of having to fork out the bill. hahaha.. but still, had to control myself for fear of putting on weight. hahahahaha... *vanity rocks*

this is a controlled level for me already.. hahaha...

well, that isnt really the start of the story. it started off on monday morning when the backdrop printer was late. i was charged to settle all issues of banner and backdrop printing. all my other babies were done and up hanging already but the backdrop had been delayed. thankfully by noon, it has arrived. funny thing was, the printer-dude left in such a hurry once he dropped it off and i knew why when i openned it up. it was HUGE~!! the lenght was right but it the width was wayyyyyy out. it could stretch from the ceiling all the way to the floor. arrrggghhhh... tried a few methods of putting it up but it all seems to lead to a dead end.

louis, assistant director of interfaith talk 10 frustrated

the director of interfaith 10 was prepared to consider this a lost and wanted to use a projector to shoot out a backdrop instead. man, was i disappointed. my baby cost around rm800 and he wanted to consider it a lost??? there was no way i was about to let that happen.

the crew started working on what we've got

so the working crew and i started to do what we can and with much improvising, we finally made it. hahaha... it no time work started and after nearly 5 hours, my baby was up standing tall and proud ready for the evening's event. once again this is thanks to all the work crew (kok wei, solomon, lucius, louis and joel) who put their minds together to figure it out and work through the noon.

well, the talk went on smoothly even though there were still a minority of pain in the ass who had to try to stir things up.. hhmmpphhh..

some of the working crew enjoying the fruits of our labor

other than that, i've gotta say that everything went on great... and i fairly enjoyed myself in this interfaith talk. like the knowledge gained from it but i've gotta say, the thing i love most about it is

MY BABY ;)

It's Been A Long Week

2006-03-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

haih... kept myself busy once again. this week has been long... meetings for more assignments *yay?*, finishing interfaith's banner and backdrop, went for my first business law tutorial *yay cos got to distrub miss shamila*, international economics test, more meetings on a different subject assignment and last but not least is today's law seminar on anti-terorism (which we are forced to go).

in between these events are also small events (some nice while others just sucked) like meeting miss shamila regarding assignment *yay cos got to kacau her again.. gosh she must hate us*, caught up with rama a little in a yamcha session *yay.. always nice to meet up oldschool bros*, crashing into miss ong's class *yay.. that is always fun... got kicked out once i was spotted but it was all smile and laughs*, loreen's car accident *sucked... but luckily all is abled to settled nicely and hopefully without hassle*, missunderstanding between friends *sucked~! man... chill lar wei. you getting us all wrong*

well, guess for those other really sucky events... hmmmm... screw it~! wont bother getting a minute older thinking about it *yay.. cos i'll live longer that way*.

Out of Place??

2006-03-10T06:15:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like this guy...
wonder what was he thinking then...

2006-03-07T12:05:00.000+08:00

when Light hurts your eyes.. step into the Darkness

Assignment Over... Or is it?

2006-03-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

it wasnt the best assignment and there were many many screw ups... but what can i say? we gave it our best. didnt sleep a wink last nite working at "kopitiam" with the rest of the guys in my group. man... editing the video took up so much time. worst of all, everything started going wrong in the very last minute. damn~! anyway, last minute managed to do the presentation from the laptop itself rather than converting it to a video. haha.. close call but it wasnt all that good. halim gave us a second chance to re-do the assignment and to set another date to present it to the rest of the class. sigh... but for 30 marks, we couldnt help but take the offer. that means we've gotta do MORE research and MORE effort to be put into it. looks like it's gonna be a very fun time to come...

To You Who Lives Ony in My Dreams

2006-03-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Friggin high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

I Blog in the Library~!

2006-03-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

*wheee...* finally applied for the wireless here in mmu and i gained access the nite itself. sweet... i'm also glad to finally confirm to myself that my laptop's wireless is working. after owning this thing for so long, this is the first time the wireless modem stretches it's wings and begin to fly (metaphorically speaking).

anyway, it's been another long day. wednesdays are normally my off days as i'm clear off all classes and should sleep in late but due to the ever approaching dateline, we had to come here and prepare for the assignment that is starting to gel together. i just hope that we dont run off track and that everything will be done in time. sigh...

Busy Busy Busy... ps: Streamyx SUXX~!

2006-02-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

haih... finishing the first month of the new semester and i'm already rushing to finish an assignment in international trade and policy. man.. drawing lots and ending up with the first group to present aint cool. i still feel so slow after noc but i'd better get my game back on. now that i've got nothing to think or care about, i just wanna finish this and get it done as swift as possible. need to make it look good for this friday's presentation too. it's worth a friggin 30 points!! this being a difficult subject to score on paper, i'd better make the most of this free points. so everyone in the group has been burning their midnight oil to get this done. will be sleepless nites for me as well till friday i guess, then it's party all day long on saturday. wanna make sure i party till i cant piss straight. wahahaha... sweettttt...

just checked today and there is nothing wrong with my modem at home and that not being able to connect to streamyx is none other than streamyx/tm's fault themselves. arrrrgggghhhh... nearly 3 days without streamyx has forced me to go over to my friend's place to work there all day long. i mean come on.. damn troublesome i tell ya... haih...

STREAMYX, YOU SUCK~!

i'm sick of being judged~!

2006-02-25T04:34:00.000+08:00

"i'm sick of being judged by you and others for the steps that i take and for every single thing i do subsequently to that choice"

is it wrong to want more in God than just the "mediocre christian" lifestyle? well, whatever it is.. i'm through with it~! i'm done searching and trying to be different. from now on... i've choosen to live the way all of you want me to. i've got no problem going back to that life, no worries and no cares. remembering the days when mum was in saudi and a whole lot of sh*t happenned to me at the same time, i was my own man... and i lived the way i had to. it was nice, comfortable and care-free... not to forget, fun~! you'll get what you want, but let's see if you want what you're gonna get.

Back

2006-02-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

it's been an extremely long month... hahhaa... havent blogged to what feels like forever. anyway, in a brief summary, chinese new year was great... had a good time with family and friends. lotsa boose to go around and all round fun. pictures will be uploaded to my flickr so check it out. went to sagil waterfalls as well. man... was that fun~!

noc just passed as well. a lot of hard work went into it and God really saw us through. though there are many comments about it, i'm just glad that God was with us all the way and saw us through it. hmmmm... i'll post my expirience in another entry some other time as this short and rushing entry would not be able to justify the whole picture. hmmm.. i'll even upload some pictures as well.

to all my friends who came and support, i'm glad you enjoyed the play and hope you brought back the expirience with you. there IS more to life than just living and dying and i do hope you'll find the meaning of life in the chapters ahead.

a special shout-out to some of my peeps which i've grown fond of...

publicity team (stephanie, richard, stephen, asher, federick, justyne, kok wei & rachel) -
the whole publicity side couldnt have pull through without you all. all of you did a fantastic job. thanks for putting up with me ;)

main cast (justin, jessica & renee) -
miss working closely with you guys and the time spent together. great job playing each of your roles.

to those who gave encouragement to me when i was down and out (you know who you are) -
thanks for being there for me when i was down. even a simple word of encouragement or just sitting by me when i was meant the world to me. thank you... you all reminded me why i love friends like you in my life.

Choice

2006-01-28T04:07:00.000+08:00

i choose this path... the path of holiness. Lord, grant me mercy and grace to walk this narrow road that You've called me to. mercy when i fall and grace to help pick me up again. not by my strength that i walk this road... but it's You who lead me through it.

What Happens Aft Intensive Week

2006-01-26T05:48:00.000+08:00

screwed

bored bored bored bored bored... i'm so bored... missing all my lovely peeps that went back home already for cny break. hope you all are having fun... haha...

as for me, i'm stuck cleaning the house and all... hehe.. the usual prep for cny. well, there are days when i'm just so darn blurr... sigh... need to find me something to do... for an outdoors-guy, staying indoors all the time is kinda messing up my vibe. messed up the other day with the whole chilli bottle thingy.. man that was embarassing~!

hmmm... but today isnt that bad. i went out to pick a friend in sentral who just got back. it was good... went to his place to chill awhile. and taadaaaa... there she was. what a beauty~!

being able to blow up stuffs is always good...

then later we headed out to have supper. i havent eaten pari for quite some time to preserved my voice for the intensive week and i was betting on losing some weight that i've pretty much skipped suppers all together. but today's sinful pleasure has gotta be chilli and pari dude... it's all good~!!

2006-01-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

Dear God, please forgive me and have patience with me... i'm sorry...

Very Very Trying...

2006-01-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

i cannot take this anymore
i'm saying everything i said before
all these words they make no sense
i find bliss in ignorance
less i hear the less you say
you'll find that out anyway
(just like before)

everything you said to me
takes me one step closer to the edge
and now i'm about to break
i need a little room to breathe
cos i'm one step closer to the edge
and now i'm about to break

i find all the answers arent so clear
wish i can find a way to disappear
all this thoughts they make no sense
i find bliss in ignorance
nothing seems to go away
over and over again
(just like before)

everything you said to me
takes me one step closer to the edge
and now i'm about to break
i need a little room to breathe
cos i'm one step closer to the edge
and now i'm about to break

shut up when i'm talking to you~!

A New Season

2006-01-18T03:10:00.000+08:00

... if there is a time for everything.. a season for every feeling.. then i believe my "emo season" has begun. not in a mood to be sociable now i guess... need some time to myself.

winds of change

2nd Day & The Pressure Is On

2006-01-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

non-stop practise from morning's devotion all the way to nite's choir practise. a very tiring day for many of us and it's only the second day. probably the only thing that keeps us going is the knowledge of the ultimate purpose we are doing all these and also having good friends around. i for one love to be around my fellow cf friends. some of which i've known forever and many others which we have bonded over the time spent together in and out of cf.

my breakfast after morning devotion

everyone: ahhhh... director eating sambal ah??!!

haha.. chill everyone! i left it out ok?

something happened today that got me thinking... i'm pondering if i have the ability and strength to pull through this whole ordeal. there are times where i doubt myself and often question if doing all these is what God has meant for me to do, i still leave myself open to Him and am prepared to allow Him to move me any direction He chooses. i've come to learn over the years that when God moves us, though many times it hurts and we do not want to be moved... but it is always for the best. not just in noc4 events.. but in every aspect of our lives.

haha... i have lots of cool pics that i took from today's practises but there are too many to upload here into the blog. if interested, check out the flickr or just click on the pic that catches your eyes on the right toolbar ;) (enjoy!)

Exams Over... What's Next?

2006-01-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

well, exams are finally over. yay~!!! we can all now take a break, sit back and enjoy our well deserved rest... not!! hahaha... all ye good people of mmu cf malacca has kicked into full speed to start practises for the upcoming and much anticipated noc4: "chapters of life". everyone all over the world (well, mainly malacca and... maybe... malaysia lar) look out for this coming event which should be out some time in fabuary ok?

anyway, after last nite's briefing, almost everyone is staying back an extra week to have an intensive practice week. today's first practise went well i believe though everyone was tired after sunday services and all.. but those who were involved all made it... well almost everyone. i was half an hour late for the first session.. hehe.. my bad.

it was fun... and tiring.. seeing that i'm having some sort of shortness of breath these few days, it's a little tiring for me to keep up a good stamina with the rest of the team. praying that i'll get better soon though. it's been a long day and i'm calling it an early nite. good start for the week :)

jessica & renee practising their lines

directors, joash and deric making themselves look busy

"waduuhhh... headache lar wait for these ppl"

one of the most sincere pic i have of renee

deric: "you ah.. must like this this and this... under the stand?"

deric trying out as a temporary dad and husband.. hmmmm...

Serves You Right

2006-01-15T03:28:00.000+08:00

this huge container is always seen parked at the corner of my housing area. it not only is a sore to the eye, but i think it's illegally sucking up electricity to power itself. sometimes, it's even parked at the side of the road which makes it dangerous for us when we make execute the bend. hahaha... today, i found it like this... nasty... wonder how it fell...

Biological Clock Screw Up

2006-01-13T06:30:00.000+08:00

arrrggghhhh... i've got 2 papers coming in a few more hours and i find myself awake at an ungodly hour. it's about 6.30am, i'm tired from studying the day before but i just cant fall asleep. i'm so dead. wonder if i could survive this day without falling ill or fall flat on my face in the exam hall. arrrggghhhh... alone in my room with only the study light illuminating my notes...

Suicidal Lizard

2006-01-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

what a wake-up call. this monitor lizard was just lying there in the middle of the road while i was on the way back from paying some bills for dad in town. luckily i was able to do an emergency break a few centimeters away running over it (don't want to clean the mess off my tires later too). was tempted to catch it and export it though. haha.. it just stared at me for a second and then went on to closing it's eyes and basking in the sun.

A Tribute to Eaky

2006-01-11T06:15:00.000+08:00

this is eaky.. one of the 10 baby scorpions that i have with me. isnt he one of the cutest things ever? haha.. this entry is dedicated to him.. her.. errrrmmm.. i'll get back to you on that...

The Colour of My Heart???

2006-01-11T05:10:00.000+08:00

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back

Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking

Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm

What you bring to relationships: Balance

LAzy Day

2006-01-10T18:15:00.000+08:00

what do all normal human beings do when it starts to rain and the weather gets comfortably cold? ... SLEEP of course~! but not for us weird mmu-ians. nooo... we have to continually force our bodies against nature's way of life and strive to stay awake to prepare for our next paper. totally bumped out and just feel like sleeping with a mouth full of honey stars. today has been extremely taxing for me as the weather is cool the whole day and the urge to close my eyes and drift off with the wind is so strong... *slaps self behind the head*

Finals Around The Corner

2006-01-08T03:51:00.000+08:00

sigh... my finals begin on monday and ends on friday. with each passing minute i keep wondering to myself, "where did the time go?". sometimes it's hard to accept that time passes extra fast in short semesters and before you know it, 2 months have passed and you are about to take your final exams. well, i wish ALL THE BEST to all mmu-ians out there who are preparing themselves for the battlefield and may the peace of God be with you always.

exam stress piling up

andrew sleeping on the job...

smelling your own armpit is the best way to fall asleep

Prayer Moves The Hands of God

2006-01-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

awesome time of prayer in cf today. the worship was beautiful and the presence of God could be felt all over the yac. i always look forward to these events where people come together to pray and lift up needs in one accord. in fact i was feeling a little down earlier today but while i was riding to campus and as i looked at the sky the song magnificent by hillsongs australia played in my head. it was beautiful to think of God's greatness and i knew my day would have already changed for the better.

spent the rest of the day in the library and when i was about to head for dinner with some of the cf-ers, i found myself stuck with a flat tire. hahaha... lucky joash was still there to give me a lift to dinner (thanks bro...). later i had to walk all the way back to campus and then push my bike to the nearest motor-repair shop. gave me a chance to be alone with God and to strike up a conversation with Him. it was nice to talk to Him like that again and i caught the repair dude 10 mins before he closes his shop. hahaha...

so, it could be viewed that today posted a series of really messed up events but by the grace of God, it all turned out better than i could ask for.

.: Australia Hillsongs - Magnificent :.

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent
Eternally wonderful, glorious
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus

When the evening fades
You call forth songs of joy
As the morning wakes
We Your children give You praise.

You are magnificent
Eternally wonderful, glorious
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus
No one ever will compare
To You, Jesus

Mozzies Everywhere

2006-01-03T06:13:00.000+08:00

arrrggghhh... such an ungodly hour and i'm still awake killing mozzies. for some reason i cant seem to keep them out of my room. it's as though they found a way to keep coming back to my room. the heck~! i cant spray my room since my babies are in here as well and they are highly allergic to insecticide. darn things are keeping me awake. boy will i be a stoner tomorrow in class... either that or i'll finish the rest of my beauty sleep in the library and allow my books to study me instead.

look at that sucker go

New Year's Blessing/Curse?

2006-01-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

may the fleas of a thousand afgan camels infest the ass of any person who messes up your year and may his arms grow too short to scracth his ass.

Happy 2006

(wahahhahaa....)

Discouraged New Year?

2006-01-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

sigh... today is the first day of year 2006 and i felt as though i've let everyone down. from careless things that i say that piss people off to hearts that i hurt due to me being lost. there is a whole list of people i want to appologize to and i dont know where to start. i' just so lost. what a great start for the new year huh? ever had one of those feelings where you want to be good but it's so hard and discouraging sometimes? yeah, i'm in that state now...

2006-01-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

Lift up your eyes, discouraged one,
The Lord your help will be;
New strength will come from Him who said,
"For rest come unto Me."

~Anon.

Good Bye Forever

2005-12-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

i'm going away from your life. i wont come into your life and disturb you anymore. yes i'm gonna die soon. i'm not sure my leaving will make you happy or sad... but i'm leaving anyway. good bye.. forever.

your's truely,
YEAR 2005

My Babies Have Arrived~!

2005-12-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

wohooo... my christmas present to myself have arrived~! i just collected my 10 baby scorpions earlier the evening. i didnt sleep the night before due to fear of oversleeping. in the morning i had some breakfast with grace (her treat.. haha...) and then we headed to campus early to find our academic advisors. apparently there is rumors that we will be barred from registering for next semester's classes. what nonsense is that all about??!! there is a chinese saying for mmu's management which translate to "nothing else better to do after eating full".
but i'm grateful to God that i had a good and open advisor. meeting her for the first time today, she was a very cheerful person and we did the evaluation smoothly. i sure hope i bump into her again. i like open and friendly ppl.. kinda makes my day.

well, after being evaluated and all, i watched "perhaps love" in the cinema. hmmm.. honestly, it's not a bad musical and the storyline's kinda cool. ermmmm... it's just that i spoil the mood most of the time when the emo scenes happen with my lame and stupid jokes. hahahaha... think even grace and richard were embarrass. well, that's just me and it would have been a bigger havoc if both andrew and i were together. after the movie and picking out of some christmas presents, we picked up my christmas present... 10 baby scorpions. hahahaha... rocks wei~! they are so cute and eeee... so lovable. wahahaha....

so far, it's been a good day and looking to get some rest before the kid's party tomorrow. good nights and to all my friends:

BLESSED CHRISTMAS~!!!

Darkness

2005-12-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

Darkness

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness

What Do I Want For Christmas???

2005-12-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

I saw daddy kissing santa claus
Underneath the mistletoe last night
He didn’t see me creep
Down the stairs to have a peep
He thought that I was tucked up
In my bedroom, fast asleep

Then I saw daddy tickle santa claus
Underneath her chin so lovely white
Oh, how dead he would have been
If mommy had only seen
Daddy kissing santa claus last night~!

i'm a happy man this christmas~!

2005-12-13T13:06:00.000+08:00

God does not demand success—just obedience

Be Still...

2005-12-10T09:20:00.000+08:00

what a blessing this morning's devotion with God has been. His words couldnt have come in a better time and situation. in the midst of my problems somehow i've run up and down to God and back to the situation but i've forgotten to just simply be still... and know that He is in control of all things.

In 102 different directions, my mind is racing;
All over my restricting room, I find myself pacing.
So desperately, I’m trying to establish balance.
Although, it seems I’m lacking the talents.

Gently, softly, you whisper in my ear—
“Be still, and know that I am God.”
Frantically running, searching for answers, I’m too busy to hear—
“Be still, and know that I am God.”

Fatigued, I collapse into the comfort of my bed;
Overwhelmed, I try in vain to plan my day ahead.
I acknowledge my dependence upon self is futile.
Your constant strength in my life is crucial.

You say, “I’m all you need;
Without me you won’t succeed.
I’ll be your refuge, your hiding place.
Just calm your anxious spirit and seek my face.

“It’s not about you; it’s all about me.
Now proclaim to the world what I have done for thee.
Bring glory to my name.
Tell how you will never be the same.”

~ Our Journey 10/12/2005

Few Good Men

2005-12-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

it's been a long day with mixed feelings in it. it started with us getting streamyx today. it took 3 years of patient waiting, being rejected and more waiting. now that it's finally here... i've got no idea what to do with it. it seems all the waiting and disappointment has damped the excitement. sure i was excited for the first 10mins but once the technician left... i kinda sat there and stared at the computer. hahaha... weird. i just didnt know what to do with it. anyway, andrew and i bought some new gadget to play with and to set up the router in order for everyone to be able to use the streamxy without complications. hehe... we even got ourselves a webcam so that everyone can see andrew blogging nude (and all the gals go ewww...). wahahhaa...

for me, i stayed home the whole day (yeah, you better believe it~!). with my hand all bandaged up so that my hand wont swell up any further from yesterday's basketball accident (dope~! i'm in my accident prone period) i just sat at home and stared at the idiot box most of the time. retreating to my secret place with God everytime i feel shaken or uncertain about the future. for me, there is no place more secure than in His arms. practically living each day by His mercy and grace.

well, just watched tom cruise's a few good men. good show about men with honor and standing up for what they believe in. am always inspired by these types of show and it leaves me wanting to live my life in an honorable way. you know... have some set of principles and actually building the backbone to carry it out. it's more difficult that it sounds and some sacrifices can be heavy. but what sacrifice could be heavier than the one paid by Christ on the cross? think it's time we practise what we preach and not bend rules for our own comfort. hmmmm... a challenge for all of us in this narrow road.

So Long & Good Night

2005-12-06T02:17:00.000+08:00

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst to take
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst to take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Do we deserve
To leave the Earth?
Do we learn
When both our cars collide?

What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry out this way
Things are better if i stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Best Care Ever - MUM~!

2005-11-29T17:56:00.000+08:00

ouch ouch ouch... mum just got back from work and straight away she got me in her room and washed my wounds. she got this new medic she got from pantai hosp which i think she said was hydrogen peroxide which is one of the washing cocktail she mixed up to clean my now 4hours old wound. "aiiyoo... should have wash your wounds earlier. dunno how much bacteria is in there now" exclaims mum in concern. mum's new cocktail was a killer too. i've faced many things previously but hydrogen peroxide is my first. killer that one. made foams on the open wound like acid eating through the skin, "it's killing all the bacterias inside", mum explained. sigh... now i'm in pain.. but i'm happy i've got mum to care for me :)
one of the best gift God gave me is a mother's love. thanks Big Guy~!

more great pics for your viewing pleasure... hehe..

andrew's mocking me saying that i've got a battle scar now and that i can join his gang... sigh... who wants to join his gang of reckless riding and suicide missions? nut ass.... sigh... hahahaa...

Injustice Accident

2005-11-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

how vile can a person's heart be? i just got back from an accident in mmu campus (infront of finance dept) involving my bike and a malay girl's (heard she's from cyber) car. grace and i just finished our morning lecture and were on the way back. i'm one who will admit fault when it's mine but this is too much. she crashed into me while trying to park without giving any signal. the fact that she hit the back of my bike already shows that she is in the wrong and both grace and i flew out of the skidding bike.

in pain, i looked up just in time to see the lady checking her car's damage and turning her signal-light on. how shitty is that? who bangs a person (despite who's in the wrong), checks your own car, heads back in to turn on the signal-light and plays "miss innocent"? she starts blaming me as if it was my fault and gather mmu's staff to her side (think she works in cyber and knows the ppl here... or this isnt the first time she banged someone here in campus). damn, was i pissed~! well, to cut the winding story short, we settled our own damages since she did not want to comply and i do not want to go through the hassle, not while grace was injured and the bike needs repairs (it's my only mode of transportation now). i only suffer from external injuries and nothing too serious.

learning from this event, i can see that people can be really cunning and some down-rigt-evil. i'm pissed that she got away scot-free but only God will be my justice. i'm regretful that grace had to go through that today because of me and i'm starting to feel mmu can be bias towards their own staff rather than the welfare of their students. sigh...

some leg wound shot for your viewing pleasure

Fable - The Lost Chapter

2005-11-29T03:00:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i last got distracted by a game and fable, being the main distraction for me for the past 3 days, this game has a rather unique touch to it. having it's storyline based on ancient days of heroes (ermmm... what's new?), this game leads you from being an orphan who watched his family and village burn to the ground to being a hero who saves the day (or destroys it depending on which sides you lean towards: good or evil.. muahaha...).

good graphics and nice twist to the storyline are the main scorers of this game. of course there is the spell casting (which is pretty cool actually) and weapon wielding both ranged and melee (everything from katana to long-swords and crossbows etc). well, took me 3 days of free time to finish it and i'm glad i'm done with it~! haha... though it had been fun, it was taking up too much of my time at nights. now waking up and remebering the reason i paste this reminder on my wall, it's time to get back to work and give time to things that matter most!

cool game but sucks up a lot of time

the dude responsible for getting me hooked

Startled

2005-11-26T11:21:00.000+08:00

had yet another weird nightmare... oooo... waking up thanking God that it was only a dream and yet wondering why i'm having such dreams about my family? scary to think if it was a picture of things to come. don't really wanna think about it but i think i'll lay off the night suppers from now on and not sleep with a full stomach. scared scared....

Refining Moments

2005-11-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

i count myself honored to be worthy of being tested by Him. for it is only through testing and refining that the best (and worst) is brought out of us. then molding takes place and shape is given to us as He wills it. it's very difficult and honestly, very painful... but i know it's for the best; that He may use me to glorify Himself... just as the apostles were prepared and willing to sacrifice all for the sake of the call, so would i if it is asked of me.

purified by fire

molded as will

finished goods that are pleasing

Give Me Strength, Lord

2005-11-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord, help us when we don't know what to do.
Help us most of all when we know what to do but don't want to do it.
May it never be said that we cling tightly to what displeases You. Amen.

CHANGE can be so DIFFICULT

2005-11-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

sigh... i'm beginning to notice that change can be harder than i expected it to be. trying to draw closer to God and be responsible for the family in dad's absence is beginning to take it's toll on the people around me. i understand it can be hard and wish i could someway change a part and not the other... but that's not possible. all i can hope is for them to draw nearer to my world and stand by me through it all. trust me, there is always a part of me who do not wish to change but i know this is for the best.

so this is for you,
cherish whatever little we share and hold it dearly for we are living in times of uncertainty. but i look forward for a time when we can be together, seperated by neither time nor space and together we'll finish this race together.

time passes so slowly when you are alone... thinking...

The Exorcism of Emily Rose

2005-11-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

faith or science?

was emily rose possessed by demonic forces
or
was she seriously ill and walked away from medical treatment that could have saved her

Father Moore ~ “Demons exist whether you believe in them or not."

seriously, this movie is not for the faint-hearted and don't go acting "macho" and bring your date out to watch this scary story.

"The Exorcism of Emily Rose is based on the real-life story of Anneliese Michel, a German college student and devout Catholic who died during an exorcism in 1976. Doctors said her seizures and visions were caused by epilepsy. Her family and their bishop believed it was demon possession. German officials responded by prosecuting the parents and priest for criminal negligence. (They were found guilty but given suspended sentences.)"
~ pluggedinonline.com

hmmmm... this movie would just be another good scare but there is something that gets me off the edge of my sit; and that is it is based on a true story. the devil is real but i thank God so is Jesus~!

still battling out if i should watch the show though... hmmmm... any suggestions and reasons backing it up?

It's Good To Be Back~!

2005-11-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

first week back in mmu and i'm loving it already. it's good to be around friends once again and going all loud and crazy. haha... since classes hasnt really started in all it's full-force this week, i've yet to see who my classmates will be this semester. but i'm all geared up and aspire to be the best i can be in this short semester and hopefully the rest of my time in mmu. trying to pay attention in class (though some are killer boring) and start studying early (and not last minute like i often do). yeah... it is a time of change... lets hope it'll last and not just some "hangat hangat tahi babi" thing. wahahaha....

meeting coursemates again was great, it was like a big family reunion where everyone goes "wazzuuupppp..." with everyone else but none was bigger than the reunion in the first cf meeting. think there is a special bond that everyone shares with each other more than just physical or emotional but also spiritual. we do share the same Heavenly Father after all.

things around the house has been fluctuating with dad now working in kl. i try my best to be a good son to mum and set a good example in the family now that i've been dub the "man of the house" by dad. somehow those words didnt leave much pride but made me fear more of my role in this house since i moved back home. along with my cf resposibilities, i have to set a good example both in campus and also home. may the Lord grant me strength to finish this race and grace to pick me up when i fall.

1Timothy 4:12
Let no one despise your youth, but be an EXAMPLE of the believers, in WORD, in CONDUCT, in LOVE, in SPIRIT, in FAITH, in PURITY.

Guess Who's Back... (Planet Shakers Rocks~!)

2005-11-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

hey wazzzzuuupppp people~! just got back from kl saturday morning. left at around 5.30am and took a drive back together with grace and richard. wahahhaha.... it's been an awesome 4 days trip and though most of the events were unplanned, i believe it was ordained by God for a full refreshing of His presence and renewal of my love, faith and strength in the Lord.

well, it started with a quiet drive up to kl on a friday afternoon... it's been awhile since i last drove up so i felt a little drowsy and was struggling to keep awake. traffic up was awefull as there were constructions on the lane i was on and all traffic was pushed to a 1 lane crawl. hot weather, slow traffic and a drowsy driver ~> worst combo ever! anyway, thank God i reached safely and soon met up with grace and we had lunch and then later caught a movie together. it was nice to spend time with her and i planned to do that throughout the time i'm up here in kl and only to attend the night concerts by Planet Shakers.

somehow God had other plans for me which i soon found out later after the movie when we wanted to pick richard (who's already signed up for the full conference) up from first concert. as i stepped into the hall, i was overwhelmed by the presence of God. for no reason what so ever i felt my heart cry and tears flow down my eyes. my heart was so drawn to the presence of the Living God that i knew right away that this was what He wanted and i had a reason for being there. i instantly enrolled to attend the full conference and was blessed more and more throughout each sessions.
though i spent lesser time with grace then what i originally planned, i drew closer to my first love and broke through several barriers that were holding me back. now i can truely walk freely once again in the light of the Almighty God and know that i can be a testimony for Him, to shake this planet for His Name sake and to save my generation.

~Glory be to God who is worthy of all praise~

Disturbing News...

2005-11-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

though it was my day off from work, i was called to go in and helped out since kenny rogers was facing a shortage of staff due to "no shows" and bad scheduling. it's not a shocker since it was now being headed my an incompetent manager who cant even manage himself least to say the whole store and it's crew. so i went to cover the dinner rush and the only good thing that came out of the day was to see dr. neo and family together with uncle chee leong and family who went to krr for dinner and to celebrate neo jo anne's birthday. she's so cute and growing up to be a lovely young lady. seeing her brings back fond memories of when she was much younger and days when wee liem, jason teoh and me were best of friends. sigh... how i wish i could go back to a time where friendship and loyalty meant so dearly to me.

the reverie soon ended with a sms i got from dad telling me to go home as soon as possible. it read "kor, something urgent just crop up and need 2 discuss it with the family". these messages are often troubling and i called dad instantly only to have him say "just come back and we'll talk about it later". damn i hated the sound of that. and so i cleared up what i was doing, punched out and speed my way back home. family meetings like these are usually a sign of major changes and like all living beings... i hate changes~! dad sat all of us down and laid the news down at our face. though i kinda expected it but it still came as a bombshell to me. i gave my opinion and strongly object but his mind was made up. sigh... nothing much i can say about that and i just listen~ sighing beneath my breath. he is far from being a kid and from being told what to do. all i can do is give my points of objection and allow him to make his choice. just praying for the best and that he knows what he's doing. hearing mum's voice crack as tears start to fill her eyes while she speaks and make clear the logic behind dad's actions to us just left me in silence. what more can i say when the person closest to my dad has already agreed and understood the situation. if anything, it was her who will be impacted the most~

all the more i wanna get out the house for now. wanna gather myself and my thoughts. it isnt a big deal to me now but i know it'll hit me in the head later. sigh... choices we make today will echo throughout eternity... just hope you know what you're doing...

A New Wind Comes In 1 Week's Time...

2005-11-08T04:56:00.000+08:00

well, nearly 5 weeks of break time is almost coming to an end. after working in kenny rogers and all, i'm kinda looking forward to going back to books and friends. there's nothing like time for yourself away from worries other than your studies. think i understand what my seniors meant when they say that now. if my job in the future is ever routine like in kenny rogers, for sure i'll leave the job and move on. hahahaha.. need something new everyday to keep me staying on i guess.

gosh... i cant wait to see what is installed for me for this new semester. i know with noc coming and all i've gotta prepare to stretch my time pretty thin or i'd better start praying for better time management. moving back home is also another big part of coming semester's plan. i'm not sure what will it be like seeing my parents & brother day in and day out once again. a part of me is happy to be close to home once again but i know a part of me dread to see the darker-side of the family again. sigh... well, guess you can just take the good without the bad huh?

now that i've stopped work (i think)... probably be heading up to kl or something to attand a planet shaker's concert.. woohoooo~! i can use the break and a refreshing kick in the butt before i head back to my books and assignments next week. so if i go i'll probably post up some pics of the concert and the people there.. wahahhaa... nice nice... later~

Updates...

2005-11-04T04:43:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,

just to inform you that i've added new features in this blog. as you can see in your right ------> under "details" there 360' Yahoo and Friendster. it's an extension of this blog with more pictures and other stuffs. for now i've randomly uploaded some pics from malacca camp in 360' Yahoo. check them out and for more enlarged pics, please wait news from rebecca when the semester begins ;)

Bored?

2005-11-04T03:54:00.000+08:00

well, i'm not sure about you but holidays can be a real bore sometimes. for me, working in a routine day-in-day-out enviroment has led me to look for some other alternatives to fill out my time....

play with fire (my favourite yet)

go for a swim

paint

play dominos

join a sport team

body art

*if you try any of these, it's at your own risk and i wont be held resposible if your head lands on a chopping-board

Sonnet 18

2005-11-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

Shall I compare you to a summer's day?
You are more lovely and more moderate:
Harsh winds disturb the delicate buds of May,
and summer doesn’t last long enough.
Sometimes the sun is too hot,
and its golden face is often dimmed by clouds.
All beautiful things eventually become less beautiful,
either by the experiences of life or by the passing of time.
But your eternal beauty won’t fade,
nor lose any of its quality.
And you will never die,
as you will live on in my enduring poetry.
As long as there are people still alive to read poems,
this sonnet will live, and you will live in it.

*missing you already*

Thanks Giving

2005-10-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

Praise God~! everything went well in accordance to His grace and mercy. grandma is out of the surgery room and stabilizing slowly. my thanks goes out to everyone who stood by me in prayer yesterday. i'll keep you updated on her progress in days to come.

results are out too... thank God once again for His grace was sufficient. i passed all my papers (even those i was prepared to fail). hahhaha... there is a sudden calm now in the midst of the storm. i'm taking a deep breath and embracing God's love.

Prayer for Grandma

2005-10-27T15:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

i come to you frail and know that i can do nothing to help the situation. as You already know, grandma had a fall yesterday and is now lying in pain in the hospital. having a fracture, she is willing to go for an operation in order to walk once again. at her age, any op would be highly risky. i only pray for Your hand to be in all of these decisions and that You'll bring her through safely or that Your will be done in her. grant her love and comfort Dear Lord as only You can give. i pray and beg all these in Your Holy Name... amen.

*my friends, please pray this simple prayer with me as i believe that prayers can move the hands of God. thanks a lot~!

Tired Tired Day...

2005-10-22T03:28:00.000+08:00

3rd day of working and i'm already bored of it. haha... rather than sitting down idle-ly, am currently earning some cash from kenny rogers roasters while waiting for the holidays the pass by. God knows i can use the extra cash anyway. things are pretty quiet there (now being the fasting month for the muslims) and we hardly see any action unlike the good ol' days. so nothings new and everything's a routine right from getting up to going to bed at night. sigh... don't think i can bear anymore of this excitement *cough cough*

well, am not complaining much. had my share of fun during the earlier days on the semester break already. went to malacca camp (ROCKXX~!) in port dickson for 4 days and then later stayed over in grace's for another 4 days or so. now that the enjoyment part is over, it's time to make up for the expediture spent over the last 9 days. hahahaa... i'm still looking forward to 1 last emjoyment before the holidays end though... just not sure when or where. hehe...

well, what's new with you readers out there? drop me a comment/email/whatever to tell me how's your life been alrights (to make up for my very very dull life at the moment). thanks and peace out~

some pics from the holidays...

before leaving for camp

i'm not sure what to make out from these pics

returning to the water

toilet shortage?!

tim got kicked in the b***s?

cutest camp couple

bow-wow & sisi

pig's nose

remembering our seniors

billy, ed, tze seong, deric, samuel & jason

in kl

good looking aaron

Cleaning Out My Closet

2005-10-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

i found out that the only way i can draw near to my Lord once again is by cleaning out my closet and coming out from darkness into the light. there is just no other way to do draw near to Him. if we are hidden in darkness, how then are we to draw near to Him which is of light? and so i did what i had to do. i confessed my sins to God and not only to Him, but my parents as well. it was better than living in the shadows all the time waiting for a peak at the light. i know my parents are very disappointed at me and i know that it's gonna take forever for me to gain back their trust once again. but that's just the punishment i have to face for wrong that i've done. i pay it gladly knowing that now i can once again start to draw near to God~ coming out of my dark shadows. i repent from my sins and choose to turn away from it once and for all. Lord, do grant me the strength to stay on this narrow road You've called me to, amen.

My Stay In KL

2005-10-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today here in kl. i got up around 7.30am and found out that i'm the only being awake at that hour. grace and richard were pretty much still in slumberland while uncle and aunty must have sent young aaron back to boarding-school and would head straight to work. we had a blast last night as aunty eva treated us all for a very sumptuous (and expensive) dinner. well, i crawled down in the stillness of the house and did my quiet time awhile. it was really quiet and after reading a chapter, i took the time to lie on the couch and thought about what i've read. the time then was already around 9am and the two sleepyheads were still snoozing away. i grab a quick bite from the fridge and head back up to bed.

we then played a game called "who sleeps the longest". we slept the whole day through (honestly, felt myself starting to turni into a pig). had a weird dream about going back to the past and something about hotdogs... dun really know what it was about but justin lee and vj was in it~ weirdo... stay out of my dreams guys...

i got up at about 6pm and rushed to shower and got ready for dinner. we had to catch a bus and meet aunty and uncle halfway the makan place. uncle philip's old friend would be joining us for dinner and it was some sort of fairwell dinner for him as he was migrating to new zealand. uncle philip ordered 2 and a half kg of crab to eat tonight for dinner. it was madness~!! i had so much crab that it started oozing out from my ears (thats because i'm already full-of-crap myself). hahahahaa... it was an excellent dinner to celebrate uncle philip's birthday.

thanks uncle philip and aunty eva for your exceedingly generous hospitality. all in all i've attended a seminar by "focus on the family" about media, learnt new moves with the banner, took time to draw closer to God, ate lots and lots of food and got to spend some time with grace, richard and family. will be leaving back to malacca tomorrow. looking forward to seeing my family again but also missing the family here already. sigh...

It Is Over

2005-10-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

i look up in the clear evening skies, the breeze was cold from the morning's rain and the air, fresh. i inhaled deep and long and exhaled with a sigh... the war is finally over. following will be 5 weeks of restoration. the war has been tough and left many scars to remember it by. the outcome is yet to be revealed but it's too early to think about that now. for some of us might have re-live the battle to insure a victorious outcome. oh how i dread that day if i had to re-sit for a paper.

but cheer up my friends. we lived through this war and now go drink and feast. for you all have deserved the break. think not of the outcome till the outcome is revealed. i'll see you when a new semester begins again. until then, i bit you good bye and fair well.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE~!

Where Did I Go Wrong?

2005-10-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

Bruised & Broken

2005-09-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

standing in the pouring rain, soaked and cold. international business was a killer. the battle is done and now only the good Lord could see me through. bruised and broken... but not dead yet. i've still got another 5 battles to brawl in before this term's war is over. cant afford to lay broken now or to weep over the fallen. i've gotta go on... got to battle it out... gotta survive~!

Possible Questions for IB

2005-09-29T15:32:00.000+08:00

fellow warriors of international business,

here are somethings that you must prepare for before the paper tomorrow. if there is anything to add please message me and let me know ya. thanks~!

FOREIGN EX MARKET
DOLLAR & DINAR
DEPEGGING
NEW WORLD ORDER & GLOBAL TERRORISM
NATO, NAFTA, GATT, FIAT CURRENCY & FDI

that's all i know for now. please let me know if there are anything more. oh ya, dont forget to study some of your notes as well. gambate y'all~! i'll see you in battle tomorrow...

Back To Dad's

2005-09-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

went back home to dad's place for the past week to study and prepare myself for finals. sigh... it has been a long week with many things to do and lots to cover. though i'm not completely done but at least i've got a better understanding of what i've been learning this whole semester (damn i'm so dead). with my papers starting tomorrow, i'm not sure if i have enough time to go through it thoroughly yet.

anyway, 2 days ago dad completed his project which he started less then a month ago~ his own exotic tank. together with a drift-wood, waterfall and all it's nice and the finishing touch was to put something in it (even if it's temp). he decided to put his male bearded dragon in and here it goes...

pretty neat huh? later that evening dad cooked lamb chop (with sides of fried chicken, coldslaw and chips) for all of us... mmm hmmmm.. it was good~! suckling and juicy. it was a meal fit for a king. just to let your mouth water, here are some pics~!

not a bad "last meal" for us who are preparing to go into battle these coming days. feels like a death sentence sometimes but i aint going down without a fight~!

Finals' Checklist...

2005-09-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

guys, check this out to make sure you didnt leave anything behind...

FINALS CHECKLIST

Geared Up and Ready To Roll

2005-09-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

finals start on 30th.. that would be when my first paper, international business starts (yay?). i've decided to put aside investigating for the monkey that is causing so much problems to us and resume only after finals are over. he's just not worth my time. everything else aside now, i'm gonna go full speed to finish up all my studies in this one week. could it be done? only God knows. i've got not much time to lose and i've better get things going. slacking off this semester due to time constrain of projects and assignments. gonna start kicking ass and once again hope to come out victorious in this battle~!

to all my friends out there who are fighting this good fight with me...

ROAR... WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS!! I'LL SEE YOU OVER THE OTHER SIDE~!!

Worship I ~> ROCKS~!

2005-09-21T15:08:00.000+08:00

last night we had our last cf meeting. we ended with worship and song dedications to our beloved Savior. it was an awesome time and i think a nice close to the cf for this semester. here are some compiled pics of the event (sorry i cant post all cos there are about 200 pics in total, hehe..)

as the semester comes towards an end, i wish all of you ALL THE BEST in your finals. study smart, do your best and let God do the rest. see you all when i see you all...

ThE wOrShIP

tHE GaLz

ThE gUYz

ToGetHerNEss~WEirD & FUnNy

9 Hours Straight... It's Finished~!

2005-09-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

9 hours straight in front of the pc~ shit-faced and smelly but i'm done~! it's finish...

got up at 8.30am this morning with one goal in mind~ to finish human resource assignment. after last night's mental block, i'm sure i'll have to rush it today if i wish finish it on time. i was certain that i wont be going to church today already due to this assignment and the past week has caused me to be less "churchly". there has been more problems in the international business world (even after the carnival/nite is over). well... that's another screwed up story.

so i hopped on my laptop and finish reading all 30 journals (that is required of me), which by the time i was through, my eyes were all blurrly. anyway... i crawled my way through and finally at 6pm.. i'm done. only taking 15 mins break for lunch... i smell from morning's wake up smell, sweat of the hot noon day and the fart of an uncleared bowal. wahahhaha~!!!

another battle has been won... for now. all i want to do is to get a nice cold bath and sleep the rest of the evening away. peace out~

Busy Week With Lotsa Changes

2005-09-16T04:40:00.000+08:00

it has been a crazy week and here are some of the deadlines that i've met this week:

mon - deadline for international business report
tue - presetation for organizational behavior
wed - advance statistic quiz
thurs - advance statistic test 2 & deadline for inovation management assignment

hahaha... damn... i'm glad those are over. still havent got any study going for finals and i've been swarm by assignments. still have one more human resource management report to be finished by saturday.. aarrrggghhhh.. when will it ever end?

trial has officially lost his mind. he bit me the other day when i was about to feed it. i understand the fact that i didnt have much time for the past few weeks to play with him so he might not have recognized me or maybe he was just hungry. so for that incident i've forgiven him but not today's. he striked me again~! i'm so gonna fry his lard ass the first chance i get! i'll upload the pics of the bite later when i have the time. damn shit ungrateful son of a snake~!

the plumbing in house 25 is a little screwy at the moment so all activities in the top floor bathroom has been suspended till further notice. haha.. which means for the past 3-4 days everyone has been taking a number to do ALL their businesses downstairs. hahaha.. ewww.... waiting till holidays to come to really get it patched up again.

crystal and stefanie has officially moved out of house 25~! sob or yay?? honestly, i would like to stay on a neutral side for this case. there are part yays and also sobs
as well. am really gonna miss crystal's cute-self being around. i sometimes feel responsible for her and her parents by letting things happen forcing her to move out. her parents are such nice people and a subtle guilt feeling fills me sometimes. that goes for steffy too. would miss the good times we had together as a family in house 25.
about the yays... i'll leave that as it is... the past.